Easter [[Life Blog 4]]

I know all moms say this but my daughter is the most BEAUTIFUL baby ever!!
She is almost two months old now and she is the coolest baby!

We just went to Easter with Malcolm's family and it was amazing. I love having a huge family on both sides and his family always makes me feel so welcome!

Just wanted to make sure to post and say HAPPY EASTER to everyone out there reading and thank you for enjoying my page =]

More to come =]

My Baby is sick ? [[Life Blog 3]]

About 12 days after we brought Jaylen home we had a problem. I was changing her and noticed a spot on her side that looked like and infected sore. I was worried but since I had a doctors appointment in a few days I decided to just watch it and see what happens with it. the next morning (maybe 6 hours later) I noticed 3 more spots and got worried. I changed my doctors appointment for later that day and by the time her daddy got home she had 6 all together.

Her doctor said they could be so many things, but all she knows is they are not good. She sent us to the Children's hospital right away and we were seen very quickly once we got there. The doctor we saw said it could be two different things.

A staff Infection
HSV

He said we should hope for the staff infection and they began to run tests.

They first thing they did was try to get an IV in her which proved very difficult. They tried 8 times before being able to finally get one in her arm. It was terrible seeing her like that.

Then they checked her spinal fluid. =[ that was the worst to see.
After that they put us in a room and told us to get comfortable. a few hours later when the next doctor came in and looked at Jay, she had 15 spots all together. The doctor told us they were pretty sure Jaylen has HSV, which is Herpes Virus.

I was shocked.

the told us if the virus was in her spinal fluid we have a big problem and that this could be life threatening.

We got lucky and the virus was only in her body and blood, which still meant a 21 day hospital stay and a bunch of medication for my little trooper. That also mean a more permanite IV since the normal IV only lasts 24 - 48 hours on a baby.

The decided to do a pic-line on her which is an IV that goes all the way into her large veins by her heart. They tried 3 times but couldn't get the Pic-Line to stay with her. They tried 21 IV's on her all together and each one either didnt even work at all or went bad after a day. They said they had no choice but to do a Broviack IV which was surgery.

She went under anesthesia and got the Broviack put in her leg, but it fell out that same night!!

we were so upset and they had to put her under anesthesia AGAIN to re do it.

They put it in her leg both times and both will leave a scar =[

The second one worked though, and the rest of the time she was in the hospital she had that Broviack and no more needle pokes!

A few days before we got out they re tested her blood to see if the HSV virus was still in her blood or not.

She will always have the virus in her body, but luckily the blood was clean which meant we could go home!!

Before we left however, the doctor told us her red blood cell count was very low and almost in the critical area. They told us they would watch it and if her body produced more by the next blood test, she could go home, if not she would need a blood transfusion . 

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I was so scared. She is only a month old and so much happened to her. 

her levels didnt go to much higher but they didn't go down either. that means her body is producing them still and we could go home, as long as we got her blood tested every month to make sure she was still healthy. she will also have to be on medication for 6 months!

Taking her home felt brand new again. I am so thankful to all the doctors and nurses that helped us and even when things got hard or irritating they were always so nice to us. We got lucky and had ourselves a little trooper and I thank god for that. 

 

Having my Baby! [[Life blog 2]]

It's been a while since I wrote on this Blog, but so much has been going on!
I had my beautiful baby girl and she is perfect.

BIRTH ::

Went in to the hospital because my doctor thought I was having some preeclampsia issues, turns out she was right. So to avoid any harm towards my baby I was induced that same night. All night I had contractions and very little sleep and after 12 hours I had not even begun to dilate. My doctor told me she was confident that it would be a few days before I would dilate enough to give birth, and that the chances of me having her natural were slim due to my narrow pelvic walls. She gave me the choice to wait and try to give birth natural or schedule a C-Section so I decided to have a C-Section!

The spinal tap was.. TERRIBLE. The first time was no breeze and I didn't feel hardly any pain, but the doctor doing it messed up... 4 TIMES! so by the 4th time my back was SORE. After another doctor came in and finally got my spinal tap right, I was pain free though! =]

Next thing I remember was hearing my beautiful baby cry <3

She was 7 lbs 7 oz and 21 inches long. Perfection.

I healed quickly and was out of the hospital a short 3 days later.

She was such an easy baby, never really cried, and I felt so comfortable with her.

Seriously?? [[Life Blog : 1]]

WOW. That is the best word to describe the irritating experience I just had at my OBGYN's office.

Little Background: First off I hate my doctors office. They schedule me appointments and then Cancel of change them the day I'm supposed to go in! (I have had 10 "reschedules"..that is ridiculous). One time when I went in... the nurse actually said "oh.. are you pregnant?" .......like this is my 4th visit... really? Anyway.. In the beginning of November my doctor (or should I say my nurse practitioner) told me I needed to take my glucose tolerance test which is normal for pregnancy. Throughout this pregnancy my body would not tolerate sugar of any kind. I couldn't eat anything sweet without getting sick instantly, guess my baby does NOT have a sweet tooth. I told them this and that my "morning" sickness was still continuing so that I would feel more comfortable testing my blood sugar levels using a meter. THEY SAID THAT WOULD BE FINE!!!! I was told to test for two weeks 4 times a day. I was told my levels should be under 95 when fasting (in the morning) and under 150 an hour after eating. Fine. 

The next time I went in to the doctor the nurse practitioner (which was not the same one as last time because with my doctors office you hardly ever get to see the same people) I asked her if she wanted to see my results and she said "Oh do  you mean your glucose test results, did you take that yet? with the drink?" I shrugged that one off and told her what the last person I saw told me to do. She looked at the results and said my numbers were to high, that they should be under 140 (what?) and I needed to be testing differently so I needed to go ahead and test another two weeks. I told her when I try to keep my numbers that low, I feel really sick. SHE SAID THAT'S NORMAL!? its normal to feel shitty? um.. okay? so fine. I suck it up and test another 2 weeks.

My next appointment was the same story. this one said my numbers should be under 130 and they are to high so I needed to continue to test and see a nutritionist. I told her I would see the nutritionist but I'm done testing because the instructions change every time. she seemed irritated but that was how we left it. 

By my next appointment I had not heard from this nutritionist still so I asked why it was taking so long to hear from them and the nurse practitioner (because I have yet to see a real doctor yet . 27 weeks pregnant) asked me WHY WAS I EXPECTING TO HEAR FROM ONE, IT LOOKS LIKE I HAVE NOT TAKEN THE GLUCOSE TEST YET!!!! like do yall even communicate!? Do I even have a file?! I was more irritated this time. I RE-explained the whole situation and she said she would make sure I hear from one.

I didn't. 

So my mom and I looked up online a better diet for gestational diabetes and I followed it. I asked about my situation at EVERY appointment and each time they said the next person I saw would visit it further. 

So at my appointment on Jan. 17th I asked for one last Ultrasound to make sure everything with my baby was normal since they told me I had gestational diabetes. She, again, was clueless and said am I still testing my blood? NO BITCH I'M NOT!! come on my due date is approaching and you guys have no idea what is going on with me. So she set up an ultrasound for today and an appointment with a REAL doctor. 

In my mind, its to damn late. I'm 35 weeks along what good will anything do now!?

TODAY: Had my ultrasound. Baby is amazingly perfect. 5lbs 11 oz and everything is measuring perfect. My estimated Due date is a little before what they thought (instead of March 2nd its Feburary 23rd) which is fine with me haha. So I think "GREAT! everything is perfect." then the doctor from HELL comes in. She asked me for my test results from my blood drawings. 

Me: You mean the ones from November to December 6th? 

Her: No the new ones, your still testing right?

Me: No. I stopped in December and thats the last time this was addresed. 

Her: It looks like they talked to you about it last time

Me: yeah because I brought it up like always but nothing was decided I just made and appointment

Her: you should be testing so we know, can I see your old tests

Me: *irritated I handed it to her*

Her: your results are to high they need to be under 130 after eating

I about lost it. I told her what I had be dealing with, with all the appointments and she INTURUPTED ME!!

Her: Lets not talk about the past lets focus on now. you need to start testing again

Me: wouldn't you see some indicators in my ultrasound if there were any problems?

Her: yes!

Me: okay so weren't mine normal?

Her: when was your last ultrasound

Me:.... JUST NOW!!!!!!!!!!!! (i said it nice)

Her: *looks* yes everything looks great! she looks perfect

Me: okay so why do I need to test again and make myself sick 

Her: To know how bad your GD is. its not that hard to test just do it

Me: *mad* it is hard. it makes me sick to try to stay under those numbers you gave me

Her: well its not about you its about the baby

BITCH!! I almost punched her. 

Me: If it was so important how come it has taken me asking every time I come in and all the way until I'm 35 weeks along for you to realize maybe you should do something and now...

Her: I'm not going to argue. just test and come back in a week. 

I'm so over this. I cried the whole way home. She made me so mad and made it seem like I don't care about my child when I care more then anything. Then she wouldn't even continue to talk to me about the situation she just measured my stomach and said bye, and left. I have done everything to make sure Jaylen is healthy and she is pushing the faults of this stupid doctors office off on me!! I will be 36 weeks ( about 3 weeks from giving birth if you go by their new due date) by the time I have my next appointment and will have new results. WHAT CAN YOU EVEN DO AT THAT POINT! its to damn late to try to do your job, let alone make me feel like i'm the one that dropped the ball!!!!

So. I called the Doctors office and requested NEVER to see her again and for her to NOT be the one to deliver my child. (they have 5 doctors there) the lady said she could not promise that I would not have her at my delivery. Really?!?!?!?! so pretty much I'm SOL?

she said all I could do to make sure she doesn't deliver my baby is switch doctors... >.<

Even though this woman put me in tears and was rude and disrespectful and made me feel like I was already a bad mom, I cant request her to not deliver my baby??

I'm over it and have no idea what to even do. 

Stressed out. 

what now?

A Serious Bone to Pick

I have two huge bones to pick with the world right now and they both center around my beautiful blue nose baby. This is Sox. She is about 4 years old and trained very well. She is friendly to all people and animals. I will admit she doesn't like when new animals come into our house (like if we try to get a new puppy) she is a little territorial when it comes to animals in her space. Other then that though, Sox is a perfectly normal and FRIENDLY dog.

My first bone is all of these ignorant people who are freaking out on me for allowing my child  (when she is born) to be around a pit bull. let me start by saying I don't think any child should be left unattended around ANY breed of dog and I will not be leaving my daughter unattended around any dog even Sox. With that being said, pit bulls are not all just born aggressive, they are raised aggressive. ANY breed of dog can be born aggressive or raised to be aggressive not just pit bulls! My dog is fine around children, she is gentle and sweet. My mom's dog (a Yorkie) is more of a threat to children then my 70 lbs of pit bull so why so much hate? If i ever feel that my dog is not going to be okay with my child I would NEVER allow the animal to remain in my home and around her, but that has nothing to do with her breed. I don't understand how it makes me a bad mom to allow my child to be around a certain breed of dog when my dog is perfectly fine. do you know what other breeds are on that "list" of aggressive breeds? 

Boxers

Akita

German Shepard

Alaskan Malamute 

Doberman Pinscher

Mastiff 

American Bull Dog

Bloodhound 

Rottweiler 

and so many more

It seems like now-a-days whoever makes this list is just naming large breed dogs. Of course if a larger breed or stronger breed of dog is aggressive it is more effective then if a small breed or weaker dog is, but it doesn't mean they are more aggressive it just means they are stronger.  

My second bone is the policy I'm running into a lot lately while I look for a new place to live. We are about to have a child, my boyfriend has a stable job that pays well, we don't party:drink:smoke, we have enough money to pay a few months rent in advanced and still we are having trouble finding a place, and why? My dog. 

Me: Do you allow pets?

Them: yeah! of course what kind of pet do you have

Me: 4 year old pit bull

Them: oh sorry we don't allow aggressive Breeds

Me:.........

Seriously!? Every time they give me that answer I want to jump through the phone. My dog is NOT aggressive and I bet you have a bunch of tiny terror terriers running around that apartment complex. I understand not wanting aggressive dogs in your complex, so do pet interviews and don't let aggressive pets in! why is it so okay for them to lump a whole breed of dogs together and judge them all based of the actions of some.... It's proving so difficult to find a place to live and my due date is quickly approaching. Then when we find a complex that is pit bull friendly they are overpriced and under maintenance. Seriously....So good choice, let in the loud and messy tenets that wont pay their rent and will have the cops there every other day and skip past the little family with a dog... Smart. 

I guess we'll just see what happens?

Just Starting Out

So I'm very new to this whole "blog" thing but i'm going to give it a try. I want to start off letting you know a little bit about me and my life. I'm 23 years old and as of now I am 34 weeks and a few days pregnant with my first child. I never wanted to have a family full of kids and be a mom believe it or not. In fact, I even asked my dad if he would schedule me an appointment to get my tubes tide when I was 7! Then I met Malcolm. The more I got to know him and love him the more I wanted that family. I think I was just waiting to believe that I could have a happy family before I would let myself want one. I am still with the father of my child and have been with him for a little of 4 years. We decided we wanted to have a baby a little over 2 years ago and couldn't wait to have one. We started trying but after months and months of no results we got worried. After visiting a fertility specialist I was told I had PCOS which in short story means I don't ovulate normally. I was told by my doctor that it would be next to impossible for me to convince on my own and I would need medication to help, so I began the medication. Sure enough within 3 months of taking the pills I was pregnant! we found out just a few weeks before Christmas and we were so excited. A short time after Christmas though, we had lost the baby. We were both devastated and after all of the disappointment we had faced the past two years we agreed to take a break and not try anymore. I still wanted a child more then anything but I wasn't sure I could take the heartache of a negative test or a miscarriage again. I stopped the medication and went on with my life. However, a few months later I was late and showed positive on a pregnancy test. I didn't let myself get excited until I was past my first trimester but after that.. boy I was ecstatic!! now I'm 34 weeks and a few days and we are anxiously waiting the arrival of our baby girl.. 

Jaylen Marie Martin 

In this blog there will be a mix of things. I'm going to treat it somewhat like my journal. 

I will write "Life Posts" in which it will be similar to an entry in a diary. Telling you what I'm going through, dealing with, or happy about in my life at that time. I will try to do those at least once a week! 

I will also be posting other posts which will be mostly things that have irritated me or made me happy that have happened. Maybe a story I read in the news or some Celebrity gossip piece I have an opinion about, or an experience I had that made me think. I'll also post any cool projects I do or cool edits of photos and anything else I can think of!

Please comment share add enjoy and all of those other things you can do!