Seriously?? [[Life Blog : 1]]

WOW. That is the best word to describe the irritating experience I just had at my OBGYN's office.

Little Background: First off I hate my doctors office. They schedule me appointments and then Cancel of change them the day I'm supposed to go in! (I have had 10 "reschedules"..that is ridiculous). One time when I went in... the nurse actually said "oh.. are you pregnant?" .......like this is my 4th visit... really? Anyway.. In the beginning of November my doctor (or should I say my nurse practitioner) told me I needed to take my glucose tolerance test which is normal for pregnancy. Throughout this pregnancy my body would not tolerate sugar of any kind. I couldn't eat anything sweet without getting sick instantly, guess my baby does NOT have a sweet tooth. I told them this and that my "morning" sickness was still continuing so that I would feel more comfortable testing my blood sugar levels using a meter. THEY SAID THAT WOULD BE FINE!!!! I was told to test for two weeks 4 times a day. I was told my levels should be under 95 when fasting (in the morning) and under 150 an hour after eating. Fine. 

The next time I went in to the doctor the nurse practitioner (which was not the same one as last time because with my doctors office you hardly ever get to see the same people) I asked her if she wanted to see my results and she said "Oh do  you mean your glucose test results, did you take that yet? with the drink?" I shrugged that one off and told her what the last person I saw told me to do. She looked at the results and said my numbers were to high, that they should be under 140 (what?) and I needed to be testing differently so I needed to go ahead and test another two weeks. I told her when I try to keep my numbers that low, I feel really sick. SHE SAID THAT'S NORMAL!? its normal to feel shitty? um.. okay? so fine. I suck it up and test another 2 weeks.

My next appointment was the same story. this one said my numbers should be under 130 and they are to high so I needed to continue to test and see a nutritionist. I told her I would see the nutritionist but I'm done testing because the instructions change every time. she seemed irritated but that was how we left it. 

By my next appointment I had not heard from this nutritionist still so I asked why it was taking so long to hear from them and the nurse practitioner (because I have yet to see a real doctor yet . 27 weeks pregnant) asked me WHY WAS I EXPECTING TO HEAR FROM ONE, IT LOOKS LIKE I HAVE NOT TAKEN THE GLUCOSE TEST YET!!!! like do yall even communicate!? Do I even have a file?! I was more irritated this time. I RE-explained the whole situation and she said she would make sure I hear from one.

I didn't. 

So my mom and I looked up online a better diet for gestational diabetes and I followed it. I asked about my situation at EVERY appointment and each time they said the next person I saw would visit it further. 

So at my appointment on Jan. 17th I asked for one last Ultrasound to make sure everything with my baby was normal since they told me I had gestational diabetes. She, again, was clueless and said am I still testing my blood? NO BITCH I'M NOT!! come on my due date is approaching and you guys have no idea what is going on with me. So she set up an ultrasound for today and an appointment with a REAL doctor. 

In my mind, its to damn late. I'm 35 weeks along what good will anything do now!?

TODAY: Had my ultrasound. Baby is amazingly perfect. 5lbs 11 oz and everything is measuring perfect. My estimated Due date is a little before what they thought (instead of March 2nd its Feburary 23rd) which is fine with me haha. So I think "GREAT! everything is perfect." then the doctor from HELL comes in. She asked me for my test results from my blood drawings. 

Me: You mean the ones from November to December 6th? 

Her: No the new ones, your still testing right?

Me: No. I stopped in December and thats the last time this was addresed. 

Her: It looks like they talked to you about it last time

Me: yeah because I brought it up like always but nothing was decided I just made and appointment

Her: you should be testing so we know, can I see your old tests

Me: *irritated I handed it to her*

Her: your results are to high they need to be under 130 after eating

I about lost it. I told her what I had be dealing with, with all the appointments and she INTURUPTED ME!!

Her: Lets not talk about the past lets focus on now. you need to start testing again

Me: wouldn't you see some indicators in my ultrasound if there were any problems?

Her: yes!

Me: okay so weren't mine normal?

Her: when was your last ultrasound

Me:.... JUST NOW!!!!!!!!!!!! (i said it nice)

Her: *looks* yes everything looks great! she looks perfect

Me: okay so why do I need to test again and make myself sick 

Her: To know how bad your GD is. its not that hard to test just do it

Me: *mad* it is hard. it makes me sick to try to stay under those numbers you gave me

Her: well its not about you its about the baby

BITCH!! I almost punched her. 

Me: If it was so important how come it has taken me asking every time I come in and all the way until I'm 35 weeks along for you to realize maybe you should do something and now...

Her: I'm not going to argue. just test and come back in a week. 

I'm so over this. I cried the whole way home. She made me so mad and made it seem like I don't care about my child when I care more then anything. Then she wouldn't even continue to talk to me about the situation she just measured my stomach and said bye, and left. I have done everything to make sure Jaylen is healthy and she is pushing the faults of this stupid doctors office off on me!! I will be 36 weeks ( about 3 weeks from giving birth if you go by their new due date) by the time I have my next appointment and will have new results. WHAT CAN YOU EVEN DO AT THAT POINT! its to damn late to try to do your job, let alone make me feel like i'm the one that dropped the ball!!!!

So. I called the Doctors office and requested NEVER to see her again and for her to NOT be the one to deliver my child. (they have 5 doctors there) the lady said she could not promise that I would not have her at my delivery. Really?!?!?!?! so pretty much I'm SOL?

she said all I could do to make sure she doesn't deliver my baby is switch doctors... >.<

Even though this woman put me in tears and was rude and disrespectful and made me feel like I was already a bad mom, I cant request her to not deliver my baby??

I'm over it and have no idea what to even do. 

Stressed out. 

what now?